I can feel my paths crumbling away into dust as my feet move
beyond my control
I miss the mundane.
Back in those days I wasn’t waiting for my life to start,
I was wondering, “how do I hold onto this forever?”
thinking nothing would ever have to change
if I didn’t let it,
Like now that I could see freedom
I would have any control.
Forgiveness isn’t reconciliation
Freedom isn’t power
Nostalgia isn’t yearning but sometimes they go hand in hand
The quiet pain of living
with myself and my choices;
instead of many potential futures,
just one. Surrounded by the graves
of past potentials that never were.
Knowing I made every move to get here, wondering,
“Did I pick the right one?”
Time is destruction
It crushes on with the force of inevitability